A little about me, intro no.2

  I've been wanting to make games since like elementary school where I was watching youtubers (and my older brother) play all sorts of cool games on all different consoles and stuff. However, my brain is kind of scuffed so mathematics and computers don't come naturally to me. Not being able to understand basic math until like 6th grade slowed me down massively. I'm still pretty behind on math and logic, which made traditional programming fairly inaccessible, because those are what computers are built on. Me not being able to fathom how computers worked put a huge road block on me learning code. Until recently.

  I spent most of my life so far learning visual art, and I'm really good at it. I thought drawing would be what I based my career and general internet presence around for the rest of my life. I drew for years, posted on DeviantArt and made good friends, but I didn't get anywhere "career-wise" and then DeviantArt started dying off rapidly, then I got burn out and mostly retired from doing digital art. 

I've only drawn/painted a few things this whole year just for the sake of doing it. Something in my brain just switched, and drawing wasn't something I just did naturally for no reason anymore. After a while of just lying around wondering wtf I was going to do with all the time I used to spend drawing. I started trying to make videos (didn't really like that), then blogging, then I started doing some writing, and playing Roblox, and creating on Roblox, and now I've started learning to actually make games in game maker.

I don't know why, but when my brain stopped drawing, I unlocked new abilities. Like being able to actually sit down and write, and the ability to actually comprehend code.

 Now, all the stuff I listed isn't the comprehensive, chronological skill path I've been on throughout my life.

I've dabbled in game making with scratch a few times on and off, but it never really worked out for me. Even though it's supposed to be a simplified version of traditional scripting, I still had an extremely hard time. This was because fundamentally, I couldn't understand. I could copy block by block to make the most mid dress-up known to man, but most of the time, I couldn't tell you what any of the code actually meant, or what it did. That sort of deeper fundamental understanding is what eluded me for most of my life so far. Drawing was intuitive, math was like seeing a 4th color.

Now I've got that 4th color cone and I finally understand that the code is talking to each other. It all makes way more sense. and here I am now.

I 've been dipping my toes in a little, but I want to start writing about the process before I start going in too far.